Do you tend to get nostalgic during the holidays? Depressed? Giddy? How do the winter holidays make you feel?
Holidays bring back memories, some of them are happy but one bad day ruined all the "happy". My dad had his stroke on Boxing Day. He was on his way to visit me and instead of seeing him walk through my door, I received a call that broke me. My dad was all about the holidays, there was not one Christmas he didn't drive all the way to visit me. I miss him most days, but more so over Christmas. It's a lonely time for me. I realize all that I have lost.
Besides my dad, I find it a depressing and stressful time. I always break my bank account and this year I may have shattered it. It is not a holiday I believe in, but I don't have the guts to not conform to everyone's expectations of me during this time of year. I am not a Christian, but because of my kids and extended family I do the whole Christmas thing. I have no religious connections to the holiday.
Low-down of my xmas holiday:
1 week to xmas: OMG PRESSIE SHOPPING
1 day to xmas: OMG *insert number of hours here*
xmas day: OMG PRESSIES YAYZ!!
days after xmas: Sigh, I'm depressed now
new years eve: Reflect
new years day: Relax
day after new year: Sigh, I'm depressed now. Where the heck did my holiday go?
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